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I recently decided to make the change to stopping indoor practices and running on my own instead. This comes after multiple controversial arguments with one of the assistant coaches that was upset that I was still showing up to practice every now and then yet doing nothing to help the team by not coming to meets. I almost took it as a compliment at first when he said that I was the force that could always lead us to victory in years before. He said I could always help them win or come closer to winning each meet. So far, for the rest of the team, we have less wins and more ties than in years before. I understand that this coach is upset that I am no longer present to help the team squeeze out those few extra points to bring the team into the lead. However, this dilemma was already worked out between me and my coach weeks ago and it was working fine for me until the assistant decided to get involved. I told him that I appreciate it and the only reason why I am still even on the team is to stay in shape between cross-country and the outdoor season, which I will compete in. But, (and I know this sounds incredibly mean), if it really all comes down to just me and the points that I would score in an indoor meet that would lead the team to victory, I cannot help but think that's a signal that maybe some members of the team need to improve as well. It still bothers me when I think about it now, even though my teammates watched the entire argument and some even vouched for me. However, after that one day, I made the false accusation that that was the last time that I would ever get in a confrontation with this coach.
I was wrong, I made the decision yesterday after one last and final fight between us. I ended up getting loud, saying "Well it doesn't matter, Coach Monz and I already worked this whole thing out! I'm gonna keep coming to practice and if you don't like it, then that's too bad for you!"
"Excuse me? I am your coach!"
"No, Monz is my coach, you and I have never worked together before, you're opinion doesn't matter to me! This is between me and Monz, so just stay the hell out of it!"
He walked away, so quietly, and I saw other members of the team looking at us, them immediately turn around as soon as I looked at them. After leaving practice that day, I decided on the drive home that the assistant coach was right; if I wasn't going to compete and help the team win then I really did not have any place going there. Therefore, I will continue to run on my own time and over the weekends. This would also give me more free time for homework and social gatherings. I'm still finding it difficult to find time to run on my own before it gets dark. I'm hoping that days will get longer and that it warms up outside within the next bit of time before March when the outdoor season begins.