Almost time

This one is going to be a little different as well. This will not have much to do with running as there is nothing new or different to report regarding the offseason. However the offseason itself is finally coming to a close. In 5 days (March 21st) my senior and final running season of high school officially begins. It has been a long and boring offseason. I haven't been able to work out the way I used to back in the fall during XC. I can feel and see myself getting weaker and skinnier and I don't wish to lose anymore weight. My runs don't feel the way they used to and my upper-body strength has been slowly declining over the last 4 months and I haven't been able to update this blog periodically or make any exciting posts because nothing has been going on. If anything I have been far more focused on school and college and whether I even want to run after high school or not. My hope is that I will not be too far behind in shape when the season starts and we begin the harder and longer runs and workouts again. My biggest fear is that I still have not gotten the feel for running the mile since the last spring season. I am unaware of whether I still only have the mentality and fell for the 5k and that it will be embarrassing to spend the first couple of meets building up the shape for sprinting a shorter distance than getting a good mile time. The other thing that worries me is that it was last spring when my running block began which caused me to believe I had plateaued and temporarily quit running. Meanwhile the year before that is when I finally broke the 5 minute mile with a 4:51 is the DCL championships yet could not even break 5 minutes last year. I always thought it was all in my head at first but after it persisted for months, despite my parents not believing me, I knew it had to be something physical.  I went to so many doctors and attempted so many workout and dietary changes, but I never found out what in the hell could possibly have caused it. And part of me is worried that it could possibly happen again. In fact I even had a dream the there night that we were doing sprint drills and I could not follow through, and my coach just gave me an odd and disappointed look.